While we're still foolin' about in my head I, well she insisted, we do some mental reimaging of my very own. And the thing about me is... I like zombies and skelligtons and all things of the grave. So obviously I went all 2spooky. But uh... While she has no problem with that, she also has quite the active imagination.
5:26 AM
I may or may not have not... Pull a gun on Nin9 to see if she would do what I would have though she would have... Not only did she not do that but she pulled out her own little weapon... Before blowing a hole in my mental self.
5:29 AM
I think I know why she only chose the shining white eyes and sharp mouth. She can just... Swap out her face whenever she wants to be as expressive as she pleases..
5:35 AM
Normally she looks a little something like this, all glowy on the inside with a blank face, but I swear she's cute as a button. Wish I could draw...
I don't think Nin9 is gonna allow me to deface my body anymore, not that I have been, I'm drink and mary jane free now, but I think it's simply not gonna happen in the future without serious consequences.
@Beckett It is the effect of inebriation, regardless of the specific type that we have experienced thus far - alcohol, cannabis, or sleep deprivation. The effect persisted.
Actively focusing is difficult. It's like every noise is amplified by how much you want to focus, it's like the world around you is taking the moment to remind you just how little it cares for your focus.(edited)
Yeah you might want to find a quieter place in that case
7:20 PM
I've got a separate question. Is active forcing a type of meditation, or is it something different? Because I was under the impression that meditation is about clearing your mind, and active forcing is anything but that.
It is essentially time spent in focused or deep thought - which, in the case of focusing on your tulpa, is considered 'active forcing'. However, 'active forcing' is also essentially a period of time where your tulpa is the primary focus of your attention rather than a secondary focus.
Active forcing is no more meditation than spending time with a friend is meditation - you can certainly spend time in meditation with them, but neither is a subste of the other.
I'm not sure how active forcing does not correlate with meditation; in fact I haven't seen many recent mentions of meditation for active forcing. Kind of shocking in a way, I guess.
I don't think anyone's romantic partner would appreciate being told flatly "I'm leaving you for a peace of myself." Although it would bring a whole new meaning in "loving yourself."
1:31 AM
That prompts a bit of a question in perspective that I will post in #lounge
On the subject of Tulpas not functioning unless payed attention to, it’s more like a thoughtform doesn’t do anything when the fronting thoughtform isn’t dedicating even the slightest bit of attention to them
3:34 AM
Exceptions may exist, but that’s how it works for us